What I See, I Draw

I am not a loud person, but I see, listen and read a lot. And then I think deeply about what that input stirs in me. There are many processes going on in my mind at any given moment.

I have felt awe and amazement for receiving new perspectives and contexts. There is joy in connections clicking in my head, beauty in feeling the resonance, a thrill when an insight arrives with a flash. Sharing any of this with another person is not easy though. Complex ideas are hard to share in words, and I accepted that. In the outside world, little of my inner world has been visible. My expanding inner world is totally useless for smalltalk, but has been entertaining for myself. For the longest time, that was enough. I kept my complexity to myself.

And then I started to draw again. I have come to see that drawing for me is a way of digesting the ideas, concepts and thoughts that stuck, connected and resonated. Sometimes these constructs, after swirling in my inner world, turn into an image. So drawing is a way of articulating complexity built in my inner world, without using so many words.

And this process is important to me, not for performance but to share the human experience. Being a human is hard, and sharing the experiences of your life is even harder. But I also believe it is essential. Drawing gives me the opportunity to share some of the complexity I sense while living on this planet, at this time, in this space. It is also how I have come to understand myself better.

This drawing is part of that. It shows how I stay with what I see.